Soon

So I am having a baby tomorrow. It feels weird to me. I am the type of person that goes to extra lengths to ensure that I am surprised on Christmas day. I like surprises. So I am just having a teensy bit of hesitation about being induced tomorrow. I feel pretty optimistic that it will go well, since my body is pretty ready to have the baby anyways, but I feel a bit of, dare I say shame, for being induced. It's purely for convenience- the doctor is worried that I won't make it to the hospital in time to have the baby if I go on my own. But I really do only live 20 minutes away from the hospital. My big concern is just making it to the hospital in time for an epidural- an essential part of delivery for me. I guess my biggest worry with being induced is that somehow I won't be proud about my story- no midnight labor, no bracing through contractions at home, no rush to the hospital. Instead, I am going to go sit in a bed, get hooked up to who knows what, and wait for the pain to start. It seems a bit anti-climatic. (I do realize that I sound completely stupid, but when has that ever stopped my from speaking my feelings!)

But the best thing about knowing I am having a baby tomorrow, is knowing that I will be holding my baby tomorrow! I am so excited to see her, to hold her, to cuddle with her. Soon.